Well my last post was very dark. I was very hurt and am still bruised but am gradually finding my feet and voice again.
To summarise, after a fight on twitter, I got over 230 vicious comments on a blog post on my site, which I have now deleted, post and all, and removed any personal commentary I had on that site.
I have re-defined my personal space on the web and my goals regarding social networking.
Sometimes people just don't want to hear the truth. That's what I initially thought and then I began a whole soul search on what the truth really is, why it matters, and which side the truth will lie in the future (pardon the pun).
I used to believe that as a human race, we had an inherent belief on what justice is. But we don't. And it shocked me. I'm naive I guess. It hurt to realise how far apart we are drifting as a race.
Our concepts of truth and justice are miles apart, and I've found to enter those debates with adults is futile and it hurts, really really bad.
So I'm concentrating my efforts on those yet to be crushed by injustice and cynicism. I'm learning to recognise those things I cannot change, as the wisdom to tell the difference is clearly formulated in my mind, thanks to some heavy duty meditation.
Having worked through the hurt of this latest incident I was guided to some fantastic quotes and the one I'm holding onto at the moment is this:
"Great writers know that you don't care what they think"
and when you know that people don't care what you think, you can write really well because no-one is reading and no-one cares. It's the most liberating thing I have felt for a long time.
So I think I'm finding my way again. I believe in the truths as I know them to be, the golden rule as it were, and social justice as I believe it to be. And I'm just going to hold onto them and write about them, cos I know that no-one really cares what I think, which will bring out my greatest work.
Thanks for all your support guys. I really love this site and the love and support you bring to it.
Kathy
